Item Description: This letter, written by Octavia Otey to her sister Ella, describes the hardships they faced on their Mississippi plantation, Green Lawn, throughout the year of 1864. Octavia defends her signing an Oath to the United States saying that she had no choice in order to feed her family while they were “behind enemy lines.” She describes how the Union took everything they had, and that they lost all of their slaves. She worries for her family’s health and ability to find food.
Dec. 12, 1864
Mrs. Ella Burke,
My dear sister,
Your letter was received today through Johnnie who called here and staid several hours, I was very glad to her from you, my dear sister, and had so much rather have seen you in person.
I am very sorry you have had your feelings hurt by those representations of my taking “the oath” I should have guarded against it, by telling you of it long ago, but had no idea that any one up here would think it worth their while to chronicle my acts.
I have never felt like I had taken the oath, although I have signed my name to such a document, which was all that was required of me, and I have no idea that the person who wrote it, wrote anything but “guess work” as it was taken in April or May, and the person who wrote about it, no doubt thought it was taken to buy goods, as no one could buy goods without taking the oath, that is, if they bought over 10 dollars worth, without taking it. Your Brother Matt’s health was such that he could go neither North or South, and he did not want to take the oath, I was violently opposed to his taking it, and if I had not taken it, he would have done it, and my pride was for my husband, more than myself, and believe me dear sister, it is only a matter of pride we who are in the enemies lines, with their clutches, as it were, on our throats, can do our cause no harm by taking their oath and it is generally understood that it lasts only while they hold possession of our part of the country. So I subscribed to their oath, to keep my husband, brother, or Father from taking it. and to keep my family of 10 white ones from beggary, or starvation, we did not have a cent of money that would buy us a morsel of meat, and they had taken anything from us but our cattle (and this fall have taken them, except our milk cow) and we had vouchers for most 700 dollars, and we could not sell them even, unless we took the oath, or got a strong Union citizen to certify that we were legal to the U.S. government, we could not do that, and I thought it more honorable, and less degrading to take the oath in the manner I did, than to beg, to fawn on our enemies, or borrow, when we saw no way to pay our debts. we have heard that everything is gone in Miss but the land they have taken everything here, almost, except the house and the furniture, every negroe we had, had been taken from us or left us, but two women and one little boy, your brother Matt was sick, and nearly distracted about how we were to live, no one to make us any bread. Will was sick and Willie Walter had never been strong since he had the Pneumonia in the spring, and it was distinctly understood between me and the “Provost Marshal” that I took it “because my husband was sick, and I had to attend to his business, and that it was for business purposes.”
no one can with truth say that I did it willingly, it was the hardest task I ever did, but I made it subject of prayer, and asked my “Heavenly father” to help me, and give me strength to do what was right, whether I wanted to or not, and I feel confident he will fix it all right with those whose good opinion I care for, as for the rest, well, I let them alone. My reporter must hae had their “hands full,” it would be an easy matter to name those who have not taken the oath, but to name all who did, would have kept them very busy.
The people of South Ala., as any other place, when they have laws to protect them, a plenty to eat, and to wear, secure in the midst of friends, are not competent to judge of what is right, and propper, for a people oppressed as we have been, to do some with starvation staring us in the face, some shot down in the midst of their families, some taken up on mere suspicion and thrown into a loathsome jail, and others with their houses burnt down, only because they may a soldier friend or relation, whom they cannot punish, so punish their friends, all this and more we have borne for the last eighteen months, and instead of the sympathy of people farther south, who have never known the terrors of Yankee rule, we get only eviscerations and malicious slanders; I have not heard it from you my dear sister, but have heard it from others, that by the people, farther south, we of North Ala. are spoken of with greater bitterness and contempt; but I think if ever they are tried the same way, they will not come out of it, any nobler than we have. Of course we think our family have suffered more than any of our acquaintances, because we have had no cotton to sell to get money, to buy the necessaries of life with.
We are all very anxious for all of our kinfolks to come back, I am afraid they are too well fixed to be in a hurry about it. Ella, I won’t deceive you, we are living very hard, but if you and Dr. Burke can stand our fare, we will share, all we have with you. I don’t want you to think we are living as well as we were when you left, but you might come and try it, and see if you can stand it; no Yankees here now, and we are beginning to straighten up, and feel free once more, we are all very anxious fo ryou and D. Burke to come up, Imogen and I, are affraid to fix a room for you, for fear you won’t come. Mr. Otey has been a little better since the Yankees have left, he has brought his rifle to light and has killed squirrels and duck already; there is plenty of game all around. Father too, has his traps, he has caught several rabbits and partridges; Will had the jaundice this fall, and they left him in a weak state of health, which caused him to have chills, I think thought they will soon leave him & I received a letter from dear sister Frances by Johnnie which I must answer; my dear sister you must not grieve too deeply for dear little Occie, you never heard the dear little “angel,” being for something to eat, or have to eat dry biscuits for her supper, whenever I hear Lucy begging for milk or butter, I would think of dear little Occie, whose wants are all supplied. Our poor children have all run wild, they are perfectly uncivilized, and I have no heart to manage them, or do anything, I strove so long to we cheerful and pleasant, when i felt like my heart was breaking, that my spirits have given way, and I do believe if the Yankees had said here a month longer it would have most killed me. Give a good deal of love to sister Caroline and family, for me, tell them I am very anxious for them to come back, but I do not know what they will do about living in that house, I should think it could be cleaned out entirely, I am in hopes you will meet this letter, if you do, and sister Caroline has heard the same thing about me, that you have, you can use your own judgement about sending it on to her, by Johnnie; I hope I have satisfied you, but it is hard to explain anything satisfactorily by letter. Mr. Otey sends his love to you, Dr. Burke, sister Caroline and sister Frances families. Will, Imogene also. Give my love to Dr. Burke also, I hope to see you all soon and may God bless and take care of you, is the prayer of your affectionate sister, Octavia A. Otey.
Come up soon as you can, we are non of us well, will has to stay in bed holy every day to keep off chills, Tell sister Frances I would answer her letter by Johnnie, but Have been very sick even since I received you letter. Just able to write you.
We did not dare to write our situation while the Yanks were in here, for fear the letter would be captured. Rest assured my dear sister my subscribing to their oath was a perfect sacrifice of myself to my family.